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Have you asked yourself why you keep doing that? You know..why you keep saying you’re sorry when you have nothing to be sorry about? Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, but you step right up and claim the blame! You didn’t step on anyone's toes and you didn’t cause what just happened to happen! It’s almost as if there is another voice that comes out from within you and you rush to take the blame…

Have you ever noticed how the ego loves to attack you with relentless mind looping just as you are trying to get to sleep? And yes of course, it’s always filled with your should haves and could haves and why didn’t you say this or that? Oh how the judgement and fears explode robbing you of your much needed and yes, much deserved sleep!

Do you find yourself shutting down, shrinking down, flying off the handle or losing your voice during conflicts only to feel a relentless rage rise up from within you that needs a firehose to put it out? Have you noticed that these are patterns of your behavior that seem to have a mind of their own and you feel that you are defenseless to stop them?

OMG!! When’s it going to stop?? How much longer will these incessant thoughts keep taking me down the spiral where I fear I’ll hit rock bottom! It’s unbearable…the conversations that keep looping around and around. Beating yourself up over the mistakes, proving to yourself your own stupidity, going around and around with your ‘if only’s.’

Let’s face it…you know what the overwhelm feels like and it sucks the breath right out of you doesn’t it? The heaviness in your chest, the ‘doldrums’ that rob you of your desire to get up and live your life. Nothing feels fun anymore. It’s all so overwhelming that you may even feel like there is no hope..no way to see how to shift it! You feel like you’ve tried everything to get out from under but nothing works!

The beginning of your healing journey… At some point, each of us has had to go through what you are experiencing right now and it is so challenging to some that they swear off love and vow never to enter into it again. I have great compassion for them but this is not you. You are here because you want to move forward. I know you do because you are reaching for something you are hoping to find here.

You may be crying. I had tears in my eyes even as I wrote the title of this mini course. I’ve been there. I’ve been right where you are. I’ve been swallowed up by the realization that the person who I loved so very much was actually incapable of loving me back in the way my heart needed and wanted.

The unhealed heart can be viscous. No, I take that back IT IS VICIOUS!! It is constantly on the attack, defensive and ready to get you before you get it. So you start to get close to it..you try to soothe and comfort it hoping you can finally say, I’ve healed! Yea! Time to give love another go!

UGH! You’ve tried to move on but you keep getting stuck and you are soooo over it! You try to date. You try to get excited about moving forward and having your next relationship but every time you do you feel yourself backing away. You try to brush the feeling away by adding up all of the reasons why this new person is all wrong for you. ( The ego loves this one! )

This course is not for the weak of heart. It is for the earnest student of life and love who never wants to be chewed up and spit out by a narcissist again..not ever! Still wondering why? Why it happened? Why they chose you? You may be shaking your head trying to get it to quit spinning. You want OUT! You want OFF of this crazy merry-go-round!

If you are feeling less than abundant and prosperous, you are separated from your true self. I’m sorry, I cannot sugar coat it to make it feel better for you. That separation is not normal nor is it natural. Unfortunately, it has become way too common so many believe it to be ‘just the way it is.’ Many believe that others must be worthier or have gotten a break that should have been yours. Not true.

Self Love is so misunderstood and as a result, few reap the benefits of the freedom that living and creating a self love lifestyle that Self Love, and only Self Love can bring! Many believe that they can get to the power of Self Love through self care. Wrong. Many believe that there are lots of other ways to create freedom. Wrong.